When my lovely Queen came home from work late last night I prepared Her dinner and gave her time to eat and relax before I started my nightly ritual of massaging Her feet and lathering them up with lotion. She spends her entire day, sometimes 14-16 hours a day on her feet so She really deserves and needs these foot massages and I happily give them to Her.
After completing the massage for Her beautiful feet it was bed time and I crawled up into bed with Her. She however wasn't quite ready for sleep. She decided it was time for some very intense teasing. When I first locked my penis into the CB6000s one of my many thoughts were that the days of simply "teasing" me were over. Little did I know that I was completely wrong and even caged up, She has ways of teasing me. And She's very good at it.
Last night was the worst of it I think. It is the first time She has brought me to the point of wanting to beg to be released from the chastity device. I moaned, groaned, whimpered, almost cried, and almost begged for it. It wasn't simply the desire to cum that brought me there. It was just the longing to feel an erection and to feel Her magical touch on me. It's the first time I HATED the device. I wanted it off. I wanted to smash it into a million pieces. I wanted Her touch.
I didn't beg though. Not yet at least. Though I'm afraid it's coming. The whimpering and groaning and of course the subtle humping of thin air are all causes of enough humiliation. Finding myself to the point I actually begged would be almost more humiliation than I could stand I'm afraid.
Reading back through what I just wrote my thoughts sound selfish. I guess in a way it is, but there were other thoughts as well. The thought that was forefront in my mind, even more than wanting to be out of the cage was to sexually please Her. I'd have in an instant given up any thought of myself to be able to sexually satisfy Her in any way She needed. Even as I write this, my desire to know She is satisfied overpowers any of my own selfish thoughts. I would gladly humiliate myself by begging Her to allow me to help Her orgasm in some way. In anyway She desired. I'm almost begging to do that as I type.....
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Sunday, September 30, 2012
Friday, September 28, 2012
Intense
Yesterday was the 9th day without an orgasm for me. It was also hands down the most frustrating and intense day to date. I think it might have had to with all the teasing the night before without release, but the entire day my cock pulsated. Not just occasionally but every couple of minutes. It was frustrating, tantalizing, pleasurable, and even a bit humiliating to not have any control over it.
By the end of the work day I was to the point I literally did not think I could go another day with this whole chastity thing and thought I was going to beg Her to unlock me and put a stop to it. I was literally going out of my mind. I don't know why or how, but at some point, late into the evening, I found control again. The pulsing never stopped but the impending feeling of misery and doom faded away and I found myself back into a state in which I could tolerate the thought of remaining chaste another day.
Today I continue to have that control back. I'm afraid though it won't last. I had very little interaction with my Wife yesterday because She had to work well into the wee hours of the morning. I'm terrified though of her having an evening to torture me, I mean ummm love on me that I will find myself right back to the point of thinking I might be better off dead than not being allowed to cum. I guess we will know sooner than later.
Other than that one terrible day I do find myself getting more use to the idea and have reached a point where the CB6000s is now for the most part forgotten except for the occasion pinch or pull during the day. Sleeping in it is still something I haven't mastered as I use to be a stomach sleeper. I now find that I will quickly need to learn to sleep on my side or back, or go without sleep.
With that said, I think I'm done here for now. I do have more to write but think I will wait until tomorrow. There is something new afoot starting this weekend that may eventually prove to be my undoing. Until then......
By the end of the work day I was to the point I literally did not think I could go another day with this whole chastity thing and thought I was going to beg Her to unlock me and put a stop to it. I was literally going out of my mind. I don't know why or how, but at some point, late into the evening, I found control again. The pulsing never stopped but the impending feeling of misery and doom faded away and I found myself back into a state in which I could tolerate the thought of remaining chaste another day.
Today I continue to have that control back. I'm afraid though it won't last. I had very little interaction with my Wife yesterday because She had to work well into the wee hours of the morning. I'm terrified though of her having an evening to torture me, I mean ummm love on me that I will find myself right back to the point of thinking I might be better off dead than not being allowed to cum. I guess we will know sooner than later.
Other than that one terrible day I do find myself getting more use to the idea and have reached a point where the CB6000s is now for the most part forgotten except for the occasion pinch or pull during the day. Sleeping in it is still something I haven't mastered as I use to be a stomach sleeper. I now find that I will quickly need to learn to sleep on my side or back, or go without sleep.
With that said, I think I'm done here for now. I do have more to write but think I will wait until tomorrow. There is something new afoot starting this weekend that may eventually prove to be my undoing. Until then......
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