Wick on Fire

Well another Monday came and went with are now ritual morning weigh in.  It wasn't good for either of us which means it was worse for me than her.  She had gained a single pound and I had gained two so that pushes my next orgasm to February 3rd. I am already looking at 80+ days.  Wow eighty days and change.  Sounds like forever.

As those of you that have been following me for a while know, if I gain weight she punishes me beyond just tacking days onto the calendar.  This time she had a new idea.  It started with a candle and a lighter.  I'm sure you can see where this is going.  She had me spread eagled on the bed and with a flick of her Bick had the candle lit and within seconds the first drips of hot wax were splashing onto my naked balls.  Ouch, Ouch and Ouch! One little detail I forgot to mention, prior to her starting this wax job so to speak, she said that tonight I would be allowed to have a "ruined" orgasm. I bring that up because it caused a bit of miscommunications between us and my waxing lasted much longer than it needed too!  After minutes of burning wax falling onto my testicles and flowing down between my ass cheeks she finally paused and said something along the lines of; "does this hurt to much for you to cum?".  It turns out she was waiting for me to actually have my ruined orgasm before she stopped, I on the other hand thought I was suppose to do that after.

Let me just say, I had cum oozing from my cock from a ruined orgasm before much more of that wax could find it's way down the candle!  Once the cum started flowing she blew out the candle, smiled down at me, and scooped up my seed and then slowly placed her fingers into my mouth as I sucked myself off her fingers. 

Of course the next part was trying to get cleaned up and get all the dried wax off of me.  The good news is that since she has had me wearing a chastity device, I'm completely shaved down there so I didn't have to worry about the wax clinging to my hair.  All in all, a very unusual punishment.

Other than that, things have been pretty quiet.  We have both been traveling out of town separately the past week so had very little time together.  I will say, we did have one night where we tried the Anbesol and condom trick I've read other do.  I was doubting at first, but between coating my penis with Anbesol and a couple of condoms, I found myself inside of her and lasting until she had several orgasm.  I was very surprised as to how well that actually worked! And with that, I'm outta here for the night!

Touchdown!

Since it's football season, I figured I'd use a football metaphor. Touchdown. Orgasm, whatever. All that really matters after forty very long days and nights I finally was allowed to orgasm! How sweet it was!

After spending time massaging and pleasing my beautiful Queen with my tongue and her teasing and denying me as usual, she finally instructed me to in her words, fuck her. I needed no further prompting, I was on my knees, climbing between her legs, and plunged inside of her. Wow did that feel good. Her wetness allowed me to easily sink into her and between the moisture and heat I knew I wouldn't last long. She grabbed her trusty vibrator, and with me stroking in and out of her, placed the tip of the vibe right on her clit and in no time she was orgasming. How I lasted long enough for her to do that is beyond me!

Once she started to come out of her own bliss, she looked me in the eye and said, "it's time for you to cum". She had a catch though, I was to pull out and cum on her stomach. I wasn't sure why but who was I to argue. Just a few more strokes and I was pulling out of her and releasing myself onto her. God did I miss being able to orgasm. That release was earthshaking. At least for me anyways!

As soon as I came, she let me know why her stomach and not inside of her beautiful pussy; she wanted to watch me clean myself off of her. I routinely clean up any time I cum, which is almost always a ruined orgasm and have no problem then, but boy is it much harder for me to lick my cum after a full blown orgasm like that! Regardless how I felt though, I found myself leaning forward and licking my cum off of her as she gently stroked my hair.

As I know some of you have experienced, a lot of my submissiveness went right out the tip of my penis with my orgasm. My lovely wife looked at me with the remnants of my seed on my face and said; "I'm not done with you yet". She led me into the bathroom and mentioned the problem of losing some of that submissiveness after an orgasm and said she was going to do all she could to help me find it again as quickly as she could. With that, she instructed me to lay down and moments later her golden nectar was flowing from her and onto my face, and into my mouth. She definitely knows how to push me to where she wants me.

Ok, so just because I was allowed to orgasm doesn't mean we are done with her weight game. She still has weight she wants to lose and weight she wants me to lose. Her new game plan? February first. As before, each pound she loses will get added to that date, each gain subtracted and my reward/punishment for my own weight hasn't changed either. I guess I'm looking at at least sixty plus days. Sigh. Goodbye orgasm. It was fun while it lasted!

One side note. She has now mentioned that her ultimate challenge will eventually be one year. Those were terrifying words to my ears. It terrified and turned me on at the same time. Man am I messed up in the head! Until next time......

It's Raining.....Gold?

I received my weight loss reward for this week and it was a doozy. It started with my lovely wife stripping out of her clothes and telling me that part of my reward would be the chance for me to sleep with her while she was naked. I'm not sure I've mentioned it before, but I'm required to sleep naked while she sleeps in pajamas but on this night I would get the great pleasure of curling my naked body up against hers. What man doesn't want the chance to do that, especially with a beautiful woman? With that said though, she wasn't done. Her next instruction was to put a towel down on the floor and lie down.

I had an idea what was coming next, but I knew for sure when she stood over me, began to spread her gorgeous pussy lips open and a moment later the splash of her golden nectar was upon me. This was not my first golden shower from her, we had done it a few times years ago, but this was the first time since starting down this Wife led marriage road. There are very few things which I've personally discovered that pushes me into so called "subspace" then when I experience this. The warmth, the taste, and knowing what it is pushes me very deep into that submissive place and can hold me there for days.

After a quick clean up, the night ended up with me being allowed to lick my Queen's pussy and then through the use of a strap-on double penetrate her, with the dildo in her bottom, and my penis in her pussy. Another magical night, of course it ended with no orgasm for myself. She without a doubt can push all the right buttons with me.

Speaking of no orgasm, it's a month today since my last. A month. Wow, I can't remember the last time I went more than a week and here I am at a month. She continues to tease me and edge me often, and it's taking less and less to get me to that edge. I in fact experienced something the other night which was a first.

She was edging me over and over for over thirty minutes. During that time, I actually began to dread when she wrapped her hand around me again because I knew how it would end. I knew I would be left frustrated and humping thin air. I've never dreaded her touch before. Over and over she did it and over and over I dreaded what was coming (or not coming as the case may be) and yet couldn't bear the thought of her stopping either. Now this is what I call a mind fuck!

With all that said, a month of chastity has been worth every minute of it if it pleases Her. Every tease, every denial, every chore, every supper cooked, every foot massage...all worth it for Her. I love her that much and with each passing day that loves seems to go as deep as my submission to Her.

Rewarded.....I Think?

I lost a pound this week so I got my reward.  My lovely Queen spent the evening mercilessly teasing me and then said she wanted to take a shower and have me wash her hair and body.  Ahhh, my gorgeous Wife naked.  How could any man say no to that?  So off to the shower we went.  While I soaped up her long hair she continually stroked my penis, which by the way, I had absolutely no problems having a very hard erection this time out of the cage!  After her hair, I next was able to wash those lovely breasts, between her legs, her cute ass, all the way down to her feet.  A terrific moment to lather that body up completely.

After she was good and clean and well rinsed, she started to really stroke me.  Faster and faster, bring me to that edge once more and stopping.  This lasted all night.  Well it felt like all night, but was probably more like five minutes.  She grasped me in her hand one last time and pumped me until I was right there, no turning back and she stopped.  I could do nothing but moan as my cum poured out of my penis.  Notice I didn't say spurted, because as you may well have guessed she once more expertely ruined another orgasm.  She wasn't done though, the load of cum leaking out of me was caught in her hand only to have me lick her clean of every drop.  So, was that a reward or torture?  I guess a little of both, but you can bet I didn't complain too much!  I do so love that woman.  Every torment she provides is well worth it.

She wasn't done yet.  Once out of the shower, I found myself lying across the bed on my back and without warning her warm moist mouth was around me.  I thought I had died.  It felt sooo good to have that.  Something I've dearly missed.  She is very good with her mouth and in seconds I was once more hard as a rock.  That hardness is what she was after because as soon as she had me there she was moving her body over me and sitting her sweet pussy onto my penis.  All I could think of when she did that was the old Batman TV show with the "booms", and "pows".  She felt so good.  I of course twenty days into being denied had absolutely no stamina, so she teased me over and over again, sliding up and down on me, and stopping precisely when she knew she needed too. 

After a long session of her riding me like that and teasing me and herself I think, I found myself between her legs, licking her, tasting her, and pleasing her with my tongue.  All in all.  A perfect night.

Heaven

Eighteen days since my last full orgasm.  It's been eighteen days, but last night I got a taste of Heaven.  She removed my cage and spent a some time softly teasing me while she watched television.  It felt so damn good to be out of that device and to feel her hand on my penis as she stroked it and it could actually get hard.  Though not as hard as you'd expect (more on that in a minute).   After the teasing and her show was over, she removed her clothes, and laid next to me and then took me into her mouth.  God did that feel so good.  But it wasn't Heaven.  That was coming next Heaven that is, not me.  After expertly sucking me and bringing me right to the edge, she stopped and climbed up my body and straddled me.  Heaven, for the first time in well over a month, I felt the heat of her pussy on my penis.  Heaven as it slowly slid inside her.  I swore I heard angels sing when she finally sank all the way down onto me.  Heaven.

It only took a few strokes of her very wet and hot pussy to bring me right to the point of no return.  She stopped.  I don't know how she timed it so close.  Over and over she rode me like that.  Though it felt like Heaven there was a touch of Hell as she stopped each time I got close.  I'd take that Hell any day for the chance to feel her wrapped around me like that.  Heaven.

After the Heaven and Hell ride of my life, she slid off of me and told me it was time to worship her pussy with my tongue.  Though I really hated to feel the warmth and wetness of her leave my penis, there is absolutely nothing I love more than to get the chance to taste her and pleasure her with my mouth.  She tastes absolutely wonderful and I cherish every chance I get to taste her and please her. 

Tonight she wouldn't orgasm from my tongue.  Tonight she wanted something else.  Occasionally she gets the urge to have me take her anally while she uses her vibrator on her clit.  Tonight was one of those nights.  A condom, some lubrication, and I was working myself into her.  Once I was in her it literally only took her a minute to explode with a very powerful orgasm.  There is nothing like listening to her when she orgasms.  I absolutely love it.  Luckily for me it only took a minute because there was no way I could have lasted more than that inside of her.  I struggled mightily not to cum as it was.  And with that, our play for the night swiftly came to an end.  There was some discussions we had during all of that which is something that has been talked about off and on during the week.  I think I'll save that for another post.

Now, I mentioned at the top of the post about not being as hard as expected.  I say that because well, I'm not getting as hard as I normally do when that aroused.  I don't know exactly what's going on.  I'm thinking maybe it's the extended time caged up and my mind isn't letting me get the raging erection I normally do or what.  A little worrisome from my point of view.  With that said though, I'm getting hard enough, it's just not as hard as I was used to before this all began.  Interesting to say the least.  I'll have to do some reading to see if others have experienced that.  And with that, I'll come to a close. Later all........

Pushing my Buttons

Day fifteen and the frustration builds and builds.  It simply doesn't help that she continues to find more ways to get me worked up.  She has surprised me many times with that gift.  Last night was a perfect example.  She knows I get very turned on by the thought of her being with someone else.  As I said in my last post we've never done that but we've discussed it and of course she has used stories like the other night to work me up.

Then she comes along last night with a simple story, no sex involved, except this one was true.  While at work a guy began to hit on her.  At one point she tells me he reached for her shoulder, pressing his arm into her incredible breasts.  The flirting continued and before it was said and done there was teasing about dinner and this man wrapping my wife up in a hug.

The emotions that course through me at hearing that are incredible and varied.  In an instant the expected feeling of extreme jealousy hits me.  Any objection I might have to this playfulness is useless because she can see my penis straining to get hard within the chastity device so she knows the thought turns me on.  This is then followed by a flood of humiliation knowing that she knows this turns me on.  Every nerve in my body lights up at the thought and all the different warring emotions and thoughts almost become overwhelming.  She is becoming better and better at pushing my buttons.  With the chastity device and lack of orgasm playing it's part, I am beginning to think she is capable of pushing me to the brink of insanity.  What more could a husband ask for in a Wife?

Caged, Weight and More...

I received my replacement ring last night and they even sent a spare. Of course what that means for me is once again I'm caged. It's been almost a week since the original ring broke and I was free of the CB6000s encasing my penis.

When I saw that package sitting in the pile of mail I have to admit my stomach knotted up immediately. There was some excitement about the thought of being in it again, I'd be lying if I said there wasn't. Surprisingly though there was another feeling; fear. Having the ability to have an erection and to have my penis stroked was great to have again. The thought of losing that once again scared the hell out of me and I was overcome with fear,regret, and arousal all at the same time.

Once my Queen clicked that lock I immediately wanted to fall on my knees in front of Her. It was almost overpowering. If we weren't pressed for time for an evening engagement I would have. As I eluded too in another post wearing a chastity device for me isn't about being good and not cheating. It's about turning over that key and the power exchange that happens when I do that. It's about seeing Her as my Queen and me on my knees with such a powerful desire to please Her in every way she needs, wants and demands. The absolute love and devotion I feel for Her is in a word; amazing.

And in other news the first week of the weight loss challenge has come to an end. Having a weekend getaway did not help either of us sadly. She gained two pounds so two days came off the bank of 31 days until my next orgasm. The bad news is I gained two pounds as well so we are back to 31 days. As for my punishment, a spanking. She took her paddle and with me bent over proceeded to give me many swats until I was near tears from the sting. Hopefully next week will be better.

Trip is Over

Well our extended weekend is officially over. It was good to get away together and spend quality time without any "normal" life issues to stress us out! Three days filled with no pressure, sleeping in, doing what we liked, and of course Her teasing me to the breaking point!

I still don't have my cage back on, so I did get to spend the weekend swinging free which actually in turn probably made things worse for me. It started on Saturday afternoon, She continuously edged me over and over. Keeping me on the verge of completely losing control. That session finished with me getting to climb between Her beautiful legs and place my mouth on Her sweet pussy. There is nothing I crave more, even my own orgasm, then to get to go down on Her until She orgasms. It's a beautiful thing!

Later Saturday evening it was time for more teasing and a little pain The late night fun started with Her putting me into a parachute ball stretcher for the first time. The gentle tug of the weight and Her occasionally swinging it kept me slightly uncomfortable to say the least. It didn't help that while wearing that she added the use of a Wartenberg wheel on my erect penis and stretched testicles. That of course led to me flinching many times which in turn caused the weight dangling from my testicles to swing even more causing additional pulling and discomfort. Once She allowed me out of that it was more edging until She fell asleep. Another long night.....for me.

Sunday we spent the day out and about all day. By the end of the evening She wanted a good foot massage and then to simply go to sleep.

Monday, our final day of the break started with Her getting coffee and breakfast in bed. That was quickly followed with Her once again stroking my penis over and and over, edging me ever closer. I finally reached a point where I was regularly oozing cum which She would ensure each drop ended up in my throat. After teasing me to no end, it was time for the tape and condom trick I mentioned in an earlier post. Once my penis was encased in tape and four condoms, it was time to enter Her. There is no more frustration that I can think of then getting to put myself into Her beautiful pussy and not be able to feel anything. I so wanted to cry and scream in frustration. Her on the other hand did scream and moan as She was able to enjoy orgasms without the worry of me coming too soon. The moans of Her pleasure made my frustration well worth it.

Reluctantly we are back to the real world and I am looking at day number eight since my last release. So, until next time.....

It Broke

Alright, so this morning I took off my CB600s to wash myself and to clean the device and when I went to put it back on, one of the eyelets on the ring broke.  The next smallest ring is too small so I will have to order a replacement.  So, I guess for the next few days, I will be working off the honor system, which will be no problem, but I'm sure there will be a little temptation creep into my head!

One good/bad thing about it breaking this morning, my lovely Queen used that opportunity to grasp my uncaged penis and tease me to the brink several times.  She is so very good at edging me.  It's enough to drive a sane person crazy.  Luckily, I'm not sane so She doesn't have to drive at all.  I do think She was fairly disappointed that the ring broke this morning.  Her reaction actually surprised me a little as I did not think the device had that much of an affect on Her.

With all that said, She did want me to post a picture of what is Hers.....

Almost Begging

When my lovely Queen came home from work late last night I prepared Her dinner and gave her time to eat and relax before I started my nightly ritual of massaging Her feet and lathering them up with lotion.  She spends her entire day, sometimes 14-16 hours a day on her feet so She really deserves and needs these foot massages and I happily give them to Her.

After completing the massage for Her beautiful feet it was bed time and I crawled up into bed with Her.  She however wasn't quite ready for sleep.  She decided it was time for some very intense teasing.  When I first locked my penis into the CB6000s one of my many thoughts were that the days of simply "teasing" me were over.  Little did I know that I was completely wrong and even caged up, She has ways of teasing me.  And She's very good at it.

Last night was the worst of it I think.  It is the first time She has brought me to the point of wanting to beg to be released from the chastity device.  I moaned, groaned, whimpered, almost cried, and almost begged for it.  It wasn't simply the desire to cum that brought me there.  It was just the longing to feel an erection and to feel Her magical touch on me.  It's the first time I HATED the device.  I wanted it off.  I wanted to smash it into a million pieces.  I wanted Her touch.

I didn't beg though.  Not yet at least.  Though I'm afraid it's coming.  The whimpering and groaning and of course the subtle humping of thin air are all causes of enough humiliation.  Finding myself to the point I actually begged would be almost more humiliation than I could stand I'm afraid.

Reading back through what I just wrote my thoughts sound selfish.  I guess in a way it is, but there were other thoughts as well.  The thought that was forefront in my mind, even more than wanting to be out of the cage was to sexually please Her.  I'd have in an instant given up any thought of myself to be able to sexually satisfy Her in any way She needed.  Even as I write this, my desire to know She is satisfied overpowers any of my own selfish thoughts.  I would gladly humiliate myself by begging Her to allow me to help Her orgasm in some way.  In anyway She desired.  I'm almost begging to do that as I type.....